Its times like these, I wish. I wish my were insides were made from steel. Immune to pain. Time does heal all. I’ve learnt that once before. But a second time around, the pain too little too familiar. A somewhat repetitive cycle. stuck in what was the worst parts of my life. Something so familiar. Something so haunting. Back to day one. Back to forgetting. You’d think experiences as such would teach you life lessons. Clearly it doesn’t. It will take a miracle for me to learn anything from this. But I’m hoping. Hoping that once again, I can look back and smile at the memories. Make fun of the boy I once was. This time will come. All in good time. For now I put my feelings aside. Put my feelings aside and smile to the crowds.